I think I am tired?

So it's 11:00 pm. Babes' are both soundly asleep. Have been for about 3 hours now, and I am up... Is it possible to be so tired that you just can't sleep? I feel absolutely exhausted. Not that I had a hard day or anything, but I think that all these sleepless nights have finally caught up on me. I haven't updated much well because my deer child has been extremely fussy lately. My weeks have consisted of taking him to doctors appointments (between his helmet & regular Pedi). The rest of the time I have pretty much being carrying him around trying to calm him. He has dropped about 1.5 lbs in less the 2 weeks even though he is eating more. I took him into the doctors about two weeks ago because he would not stop crying, he went almost a full 24 hours of literally screaming or fussy. We thought he was constipated but when the pedi checked him, he seemed ok. Luckily he was still crying and she was able to see that I was not making it up. She asked me to nurse him while we were there because she wanted to watch (Yeah, I know creepy, but if it makes you feel any better she was just checking how he was reacting to the boob) :) At this point they have pretty much chucked it to teething, however the losing weight is still "concerning" them. We have another appt. tomorrow but I am thinking of canceling it since he has his 6 month appt. next week. I will call and ask if we can just skip it, I can weigh him myself on Friday when I go and see my lactation consultant. If I notice that he has dropped more I'll just call.

We are going to start the transition into the crib this weekend. Scary... he is almost STTN again. He wakes up at around 3:00 am. I have been letting him fuss a bit (no more nursing him to sleep) and he will fuss for about 5 minutes and then he is back asleep. He wakes up at 5:00 am again and wants to eat. I nurse him then and since Mark is gone by that point, I bring him in bed with me and we sleep in until 7:30 am. (And I always said I would NEVER co-sleep with my child) Oh the things you say before you're a mommy & you get slapped in the face with the reality of going days on 3 hours of sleep :) Well anyway, Mark and I had said that he would sleep in our room until he was 6 months old... Well with his 6 months just around the corner, I have found myself coming up with every single excuse as to why he is not ready when in reality he is completely ready to be in the nursery yet it's me that can't face the idea of him not being next to me throughout the night. (I am crying now... ridiculous I know, but who would have thought that it would be me having issues with this whole thing) Anyway we got the Nursery ready for him last night and we are going to start the transition this weekend. I think I am going to be the one not STTN because my eyes will be glued to the video monitor all night.

Today I took care of a 5 month old along with Eli. My friend Lauren had to go to the doctors and I gladly volunteered to watch her son Hadrian for her. Well mommy's with multiples Kudos to you! I have always respected families that raise twins/or more but after today, I kneel down to you in awe! How the heck do you do it. How do you divide your time equally among the babies! It doesn't help that Hadrian woke up from his nap in a completely different house, with a completely different person and no mommy! He freaked out. Eli was actually pretty good, he only cried for a bit, so while they were both crying, I put Eli in the moby wrap and kind inched him over to my right side and I was holding Hadrian with my left arm. I decided to go out for a walk to the mailbox a whole 50 feet away to see if I could get both the boys to stop crying. Well I swear that even the little kids riding their bikes outside looked at me like I was completely incapable of being a mommy because they would not stop crying! One of the little boys even asked me why they were crying and why couldn't I make them happy! Normally I would have thought a question like that was the cutest thing ever but today I wanted to side eye the little boy and tell him, umm why don't you make them happy but no, I was a mature adult smiled at the little boy and said I was going to try! Once back in the house, I got Eli on the floor with his toys and he was fine the rest of the time. I was so happy that for once, he actually kept himself entertained. That left me to try and comfort poor Hadrian. I tried feeding him, a paci, toys, jumperoo and nothing, he only wanted me to hold him while he cried. I held him in the cradle position and started singing the song I sing to Eli to calm him down (and the song my dad sang to me as a little girl) and he started quieting down. I couldn't believe it was actually working, he was falling asleep when his mom knocked on the door, as soon as he hear her voice he started crying again but this time with so much emotion! Poor little guy, but anyway I truly believe that my dad's song has magical powers in calming down babies, and I TRULY admire mom's of multiples! Now that my short "Tired" post turned into a long nonsense post I will leave you with these two pics.

Lauren, Hadrian, Eli and I walked over to Dunkin Doughnuts this morning for some coffee! Eli was great in the high chair and kept himself entertained with his elephant!

And here he is making a mess!